The Cub's Lair

First, a quick disclaimer: I am simply sharing some personal thoughts here with absolutely no other intentions or hidden agendas.

I’m officially 20 years old! First and foremost, I want to thank my mom and dad for working so hard to raise me. Without them, I wouldn’t be here, and I wouldn’t have this happy life! Today is a very special day. Although it was exhausting, I’m super happy. Today, the final official version of the “Little Flyer Bear Download System” was released to everyone, which makes me so thrilled! Words cannot describe how I feel right now, haha~ I’m just so incredibly happy. Alright, enough rambling. Be true to myself, be truly happy~

It seems like everyone around me can get under my skin, as if anyone can effortlessly control my emotions… Is this a common problem? Is everyone like this? Actually, if I could just let go of others’ opinions and focus on myself, I’d be so much happier, and life would be a breeze. It would be like a hidden paradise, a true sanctuary for the soul, a harbor to anchor and recharge. I wonder how many people in this world actually have such a sacred sanctuary. We, bumping around aimlessly, really yearn for it. Just like my mood blog—I don’t know who will read this, or what kind of person they’ll be, but none of that matters, because my heart is already open…

I failed a class and now I have to retake the exam. So incredibly frustrated~ Curse this test-oriented education system! I finally broke free from 12 years of elementary and secondary school, and managed to get into college, only to find it’s still exactly the same.

It’s back-to-school season again. Watching the freshmen streaming onto campus, I can’t help but recall my own matriculation last year. A whole year has flown by, yet those memories remain incredibly vivid. The first year of college changes your perspective a lot. I don’t even know if I’ve changed for the better or the worse. Sometimes college feels like a really annoying place, and other times it feels pretty meaningful… Oh well, enough rambling for now.

Even though the break felt pretty boring and I was looking forward to school starting, now that it’s just around the corner, I suddenly don’t want to go back anymore. My plans for the holidays fell through again. My friends always complain, “You always make this excuse or that excuse, we can never reach you! What on earth are you busy with every day?” But looking back at this break, I really didn’t accomplish anything special. Sigh… what a massive fail. That’s really the only way I can describe myself. I just hope I can cheer up a bit and welcome the new semester with a smile!

Staying at home is just so incredibly boring. Every day is the same: sit in front of the computer writing code, and when I get tired, play around for a bit. I feel like my IQ is constantly dropping. Oh man… maybe I really am starting to get stupid, haha… If this keeps up, I might as well just change my name to “Little Silly Bear”, haha~