Work is So Exhausting...

Some people say that when your hobby becomes your job, it turns into a complete tragedy. I didn’t believe it at first, so I gave it a shot. As it turns out, that saying has a whole lot of truth to it.

The things I used to love doing are now what I do every single day, completely structured into tasks and pipelines. I admit that having a personal interest gave me a massive learning advantage, but right now, I am genuinely feeling exhausted. Yet, strangely enough, my intellectual curiosity remains unfulfilled.

I keep wondering why this is. The things I used to do have completely lost their original flavor; the learning atmosphere I once enjoyed is long gone. The joy that work used to bring has faded away entirely…

But I still love my passion. Often, I want to build the cool ideas bouncing around in my head, but instead, I spend every day writing seemingly meaningless code for the company and fixing one predicted bug after another. These tasks occupy every single second of my time. I really can’t fathom what the higher-ups are thinking, as they have their own corporate agendas. But one thing is for sure: I don’t want to become like them. This current state is definitely not what I want.

For a happy bear, when something doesn’t taste right, you have to be brave enough to say no and go search for a jar of honey that’s actually to your liking~